Saturday, February 27, 2010


if only, i could see what it would be like if i never suffered from anorexia.
how different life would have been!
i would have never lost my love for dance...

i would have never have lost my passionate future of living in the city

i would have never have lost my first true love...

i would have never have lost my group of friends...
(to a degree, i never wanted to do anything!)

to become someone i never imagined i'd be:

Recovery is more than weight gain, youre gaining your life back..

your hope, your future, your passion, you

NEDA- spread awareness, gain back a life

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

silly advertisements

before my spin class, i stopped for a late lunch at whole foods;

garlic green beans, sesame glazed tofu (my favorite), stir fry noodles, and a quinoa dish.
I HATED THE QUINOA and i dont know why?! maybe because it was cold? i didnt like the mix with chickpeas? hmmmm... any good recipes i can try at home?
its okay; i finished everything else (;

ohh and i love what the little tent fold says in the background:
"be good to your whole body"
yet another silly advertisement!

Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn. -C.S. Lewis
that man is pure genius.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

hungry? grab a snickers.

honestly i HATE snicker bars, idk why? maybe its because im not a huge fan of chocolate..
but moving onnnn. i saw a commercial for it today and here was there hook;

"you aren't yourself when you're hungry"
woah! well hello deeper meaning!

snickers actually had a point here, i began thinking of how far i've come since being wrapped up in anorexia; gosh i really wasnt myself! i was a lifeless, depressed frame of a once energetic beautiful girl. ( i wish i could find this commercial; it was funny; google you disappoint me)
i convinced myself that i wasnt starving, desperately hungry, when in reality that was so far from the truth. gahhh i NEEDED to eat about 100 snickers (;

its funny when you find motivation in silly advertisements, but i'm glad i just happened to flip to this channel today!

Saturday, February 20, 2010


by the mass amount of junk food my great aunt bought us:
mind you; theres only 3 girls living in my house (:

so you bet my weaknesses made it into that cart!
Chips Ahoy! and ice creammmmm

whats your favorite junk food?
remember moderation is key (;

Sunday, February 14, 2010

i forgot

i forgot that despite the fact that i'm super girly, i love freaking camping!
haha i think its just the atmosphere of getting away from the real world
p.s. i love all that unhealthy camp food too,
so bad, yet so good (;

childhood nostalgia: fluffernutter

in a bowl, duh :D
lets see? skiing is dangerous! what the heck, i feel like i got ran over by a bus, buttttt i was pretty good!
... on the bunny hill

ex? not so good, lets not go there

friends? amazing! love god, love life, love health

You are altogether beautiful, my darling,
beautiful in every way.
songs of solomon 4:7

Thursday, February 11, 2010


yup, i havent been here in idk 4593830 days?
oh welllll...

wish me luck for i am going on a youth retreat in the poconos this weekend (more snow; gag me).

anxiety is at all time highs for this trip:
  • catered meals (usually i'm ok with them but this is all junk food! we have the menus)
  • never been skiing/snowboarding/tubing (brilliant time to try right)
  • 3 days in the same location as my ex, who happens to be the pastor's son (we were serious for 2 years and uhm now he doesnt acknowledge me) i am STILL not over it..

wish me luck, i have a feeling i'm gonna need it!

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
isaiah 41:9-11

Friday, February 5, 2010


literally this wrap was coming undone as i was trying to snap a picture!

turkey club wrappish:

Flat-Out STUFFED with smart balance mayo, turkey, uncured all-natural turkey bacon (35 cals, 6 g protein for a huge thick slice; DOESNT taste like bacon but it definitely DOESNT taste bad! better actually), romaine, carrots, and tomato with a gala apple. i hate to take a bite! :D
please try this? and tell me this isnt one of the best combos God ever created (; hehehe
plans for the rest of the day?
gym to run! gotta be consistent!
work? friendlys? right. because people want ice cream during a blizzard !

whats your favorite sandwich? this is definitely top 3 on my list!


winner of the wimpy giveaway is miss becca!
please send me your address lover and i'll send them out asap!
there might be a few surprises, but if i told you then it wouldnt be a surprise. duhhh

be back later with some YUMMY eats from today

weeeeeeeeeee (;
happy friday everyone

Thursday, February 4, 2010

veggied out

EARLY (LIKE 2AM) why cant i sleep?!
i woke up oddly enough craving vegetables;
plain, boiled, crisp vegetables.
what the heck?! is my body trying to tell me something?!
exactly what i had: 2 eggs scrambled, huge bowl of steamed broccoli, carrots, cauliflower, served with a bottle squirt of ketchup

other eats i've been meaning to share:
yesterdays lunch:

roast beef, provolone, and spinach panini with a golden delicious

some snack?

vanilla oikos with a whole grain banana nut muffin, little spoonful of barney butter just for good measure :D
i've been running everyday and its true! it does get easier! for all you treaders out there, any suggestions on getting more miles in?

how do you fall asleep? AND stay asleep?!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

i'm blonde (r)

my hair was yet again dyed and the fried feeling was back!

HAIR TIP : for smoother hair, while in the shower, conditioner still in, use a wide toothed comb to brush through before rinsing! really does work! (;

don't forget to enter the giveaway below! sample organic hair products are now included:D pictures to follow!
also, one more surprise will be added tomorrow! (;

ohh i'm excited! hah yayayyayay